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"Oh Captain, My Captain!"

still do not know how I feel. I could not describe nor a word or a long, rambling sentence that lasted more than a page. I do not know. David Foster Wallace was a writer who changed my understanding of literature and life. He changed the way my brain worked. David Foster Wallace was a person who helped me know myself better, put into words what I did not know how to express. But he never talked about how I might feel when the person he most admired, the person who had given me without even knowing it, died. I've fantasized many times about the possibility that perhaps I could find in a book signing and he could say a memorized script that his books have meant so much to me and helped me not feel so alone. Just this. I had this need to simply give thanks.

I would forever remember every detail of the day I learned that David Foster Wallace had committed suicide. The problem is not only in my long list of days when I'm stuck at home and do nothing all merge into an undifferentiated mass, but experience has taught me that memory is a weak muscle and to forget precisely what we swear we will never forget. I remember there had ever heard of David Foster Wallace, but one day, going through the shelves of the library, I met two of his books. Should be looking for another book, I forget which, but I had settled with his family and decided that some books with similar titles were needed to read. But I do not remember what I read first, if 'Brief Interviews with Hideous Men' or 'supposedly fun thing I'll never do' .

But mostly I like to remember what life was like before I learned the news. Now everyone will read David Foster Wallace in mind is the guy who hanged himself when she was 46 years. The only David Foster Wallace agreed that the world will be of David Foster Wallace, after the success of 'The girl with the weird hair' , was admitted to hospital asking to be put under surveillance to prevent suicide. Everyone read 'Infinite Jest' like a harbinger of what the author would end up doing that Friday in September just before school started the new course. Everyone will forget that David Foster Wallace was a clever and funny writer. I never could have imagined. It is obvious that it was a neurotic person, obsessive-compulsive and depressive, but always thought I had a wonderful sense of humor that would help always move forward. This scares me because if better men than I have fallen, what will happen to me in the future? This is a death which destroys all the schemes that I had built over the world. I cried so much. As he could not remember mourn.

I feel empty. But this is not the right word. I feel we've lost something very valuable. We all have lost. I feel that since no author can tell me about the way you told me Dave. Reading his books is like having an extremely intelligent conversation with someone who plays in a whole different league to yours. At first you feel overwhelmed, you're not up to par, but if persist as you take notice of the hand and never let go no. If you have enough patience to hear talk about marketing strategies in the most arid possible, you end up telling him terribly intimate things about himself and you will notice that happens to you as well. If you have enough willpower to resist that last sentence paragraphs and paragraphs that last page, you will realize that he only wants to make you laugh and that all he aspires to is that in your company you feel less alone. If you persist you will notice that, though demanding, is more generous than the writer has ever known. Is someone who has just winning for his sense of humor, his intelligence, his wit, his fragility, his insecurity, his sarcasm, his tenderness, his neurotic obsessions and antisocial quirks. It has given me so much. It's all so sad.

I've been a long time thinking how I could title this post. Nothing seemed right. (But, however, anything would be better than the owner of the New York Times: "Postmodern writer is found dead.") In the end I decided to do with the title of a poem by Walt Whitman. Turns out the address of your e-mail at the university began with ocapmycap . And now the poem seems terribly appropriate. Right for me and for everyone who wanted (or want) (although we had not ever met in person):

Oh, Captain!, Captain!, our terrible journey has ended,
the ship has survived all the hurdles,
have won the prize longed,
The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting,
While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring.
But, oh heart, a heart, a heart! Oh
bleeding drops of red,
where my Captain lies, Fallen cold and dead

Oh, captain, my captain, stand and listen bells,
arise, for you the flag is flung for you the bugle trills,
For you bouquets and wreaths with ribbons for you
crowds on the beaches,
the crowd crying for you, you become the faces eager:
Here Captain! Dear father!
that my arm go under your head!
It is some dream that they lie on the bridge,
fallen cold and dead.

My Captain does not answer, his lips are pale and do not move,
my father did not feel my arm, has no pulse nor will,
the ship safely, has anchored his journey is over, back from
his dreadful journey, the victorious ship enters the port. Oh
beaches, rejoice! Sonad bells!
But I, with mournful steps
go around the bridge where my Captain lies, Fallen cold and dead
. Walt Whitman

But I can not leave without letting him speak for himself :

"A work of fiction is a conversation that can deal with the essential loneliness occurring in the world. Among human beings there is a situation of lack of communication of emotions. Communication between the operator and the reader is extraordinarily mysterious. The great literature provokes an experience that can help to overcome the isolation of a subjective order. I do not know if it will work in English, because it is a term very idiomatic and idiosyncratic, in fact, the expression of a sound. I found after reading Auden and Yeats, I do not remember exactly. It's like an epiphany, in the sense that Joyce gave to the term, a revelation, a sense of harmony and perfection that he feels in the presence of a job well done, the work of art that does the trick. It's like a click, the sound it makes a box that is perfectly crafted to close. The ineffable effect caused by the contact with the work of art. Communication between different minds thinking that derives from the contemplation of poetic beauty. In the act of reading is given a component that is the attempt to establish communication with another consciousness, an interpenetration. What I call the click is the ability to recognize thoughts and feelings that the reader feels as his own, but can not verbalize. I, as a reader, when reading I feel that the author has found the words I need to give expression to my feelings. No way, I have given them, but they are no less than mine, thanks to the poet, the writer, have been transfigured, and expressed in a phrase of great beauty. At that time, the world comes wholeness, soundness, uprightness. "

I feel

so alone. I'm going to miss so much. And life will never again make sense.